Did life just get harder or Im getting weaker?

Maybe some people thought that I’m a religious person. No I am not. For me a religious person is the one who master all the knowledge of the religion. Well, in my case, I do understand my religion, I mean the basic such as the prayer, fasting and etc. which all Muslim should know and master it in order to called them self a Muslim. Even, until now I am still learning further about my religion, Islam.

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Religion for me is a human need. I do compare the common religions that exist in my life, such as Christian, Buddhism, Hindu and of course my first and foremost engraved religion since I was born, Islam.

Religion shows me the path and solution for every problem I face.

Religion saves me from doing stupid things and actions in my life.

Religion shows me the way to live this life.

From my personal view, I choose Islam because it thought me how to do things from the very basic for instance our daily cleanliness routine until the way on how to rule a country.

At first, for me, Islam was like a religion which full of restriction and laws, but eventually, I came to understand the reason behind all those so called ‘discrimination’ were actually came with very positive and reasonable impact, for example, the women. Women seems to be discriminated in Islam as they have to follow a bunch of very strict rules compare to man. For instance, women have to wear clothes which are loses and not showing of the curve of the body, the fabric should be thick and not transparent, the color and accessories shall not too bright which can drag attention of the crowd. The body part that must be covered is called the Aurat [the Arabic word which meant the shames]. The clothes then should cover the whole body except the face and hand [starting from the wrist to the palm]. Not only that, women also have to display a polite, modest attitude and not flirting around when working with man. The question is why women have to follow all these? Well, women has very attractive figure, physically the most. By covering the curves, choose the modest color and accessories, and keep up a good manner and attitude, Islam is actually save women from being targeted for sexual harassment by man. Man in the other hand, has their own weakness; women. In Islam, the man has to lower their gaze when encounter a women, but not all man successful when doing this as the women did not help themself to cover their curves and attitude properly. These create a situation which man loses control on women, and the case begins. Other than that, man should be happy for women covering their Aurat, especially the husband. The beauties of your wife are covered from the public, and only you have the full excess to her. Is not that a privilege?

Talking about religion remind me on how I get to know Islam.

During my childhood, I loved to ask my parents about God; where,why,when...all the WH question, but all these questions are quite way too much than what they know. Eventually, during my standard 2 in primary school, my mother entered me into a religion class, an Islamic class in the evening. It was just a small class with mixed age from 6 years old to 12 years old and there was only a teacher, we called her Ustazah Hanifah. Starting at that moment, most of my questions starting to dissolve and I gained more understanding about religion, Islam. Based from that class, I learned about my one and only God, ALLAH and the messenger Muhammad. I do learned about other prophets such as Abraham, Moses, Jesus and as a Muslim I do believe in those prophets existence and the religion that they brought together. The reason I believe in Torah, Injil [bible], Zabur because those entire sacred books have one major massage, there is only one God, ALLAH. As for Muhammad, he also brought the same massage as the other prophets before; there is no God except Allah, which this shows that Muhammad is not a liar, but a true messenger from the Lord, Allah and this lead to the Islamic confession phrase: I believe there no God except Allah, and Muhammad is His messenger.

Once, we confessed the line [syahadah], “I believe there no God except Allah, and Muhammad is His massanger” and believe it with our truly heart, then from that moment, we are called Muslim.

Well, in Malaysia, to be a Muslim, we had to go several bureaucracy steps which takes time and effort in order to get the physical proof we are Muslim [such as changing the Identification Card and etc.], but once one had confessed the syahadah above, spiritually one is now a Muslim. Plus, the norm in Malaysia, when people reverted into Muslim, they had to change their name entirely which this is not a compulsory in Islam. Prophet Muhammad did change some of his followers name when they reverted to Islam because their previous name has the bad meaning. As in Islam, when we called a person with a name, we actually pray unto one, therefore a good name shall give one a good bless. Hence, if our previous name has the positive meaning, then it is okay to stay with it and of course we can use our beloved father’s name.


I choose Islam because Islam never denies the past religion; the past religions which were pure from Allah to the hand of the past prophets them self, not the edited by their followers. If I believe in Moses, I shall believe in Abraham, and also Jesus and the last prophet, Muhammad, as they all together brought the same massage.

But again, I am not a religious person and not a good example of Muslim. Never judge a religion based on the believers, but study from the primer source as for Islam is the Al- Quran and hadith. I did study the Bible, but not the primer source. The primer source of Bible was written in Hebrew which was the real language for Bible and in Hebrew, Bible was called as Injil. Hebrew was the language use by Jesus. Personally, as Bible being translated from Hebrew to Greek and then English, the current Bible I doubted may not truly as the Hebrew version. My question is, why not the Hebrew phrases being included? When I compare to Islam, until today Al- Quran is the same as the one Muhammad received from Allah in the Arabic words. However, yes, there are a lot of translations but still the primer source being used as the reading, meanwhile the translation as the guideline in order to understand the Arabic. In the Quran, Injil was mentioned same goes with the Torah and Zabur, and as a Muslim I believed those holy books [the original one not the edited and translated] were from Allah. and I believe, if the we study the primer source of the holy books, we will find similarity between them which eventually unite us into one and the latest. ;)


It was my last year at SMSS, form 5. I began to wonder, after all this time, I have been reading the Quran but did not actually know the meaning, what actually Allah tries to tell me in the Quran? Then, I started searching for translation in Bahasa. I borrowed my friends Quran with translation. When I started to understand the meaning of the Quran, then only I realized the purpose of me living in this world, I realized how this life should be. Still some phrase were quite complicated to understand, and this lead me to seek for guidance from my teachers or I called them Ustaz and Ustazah. The finding of the purpose of life really turned my life into better direction as I have a goal to achieve and my routines shall contributing to achieve the goal. I called this a directed life with real people, real dream, and real goal. The hadiths then taught me the method to achieve the goal. When combining the Quran and hadith, life no longer a meaning less journey for me.



As I digesting the meaning of Quran, thoughts starting to emerge in my mind :

I want to spread the lovely of Islam. I want to change the world into a better place to live. I must do and encourage good did and prevent the bad. I need a mechanism to continue the work of my beloved Prophet Muhammad.
and my fav part
Whatever I do, must based on Islam even in argument because Islam is my stand. Religion come first even though logic seems legit.



ps: Ignore me poor writing... ><', Just to widen the spectrum of audience. :P

to be continued...



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I love you, you love me, we r hapi family~

UMS…


Di medan ilmu skrp, smss, plkn, dan kmj, turut ada sahabat dan guru yang berjaya meninta di hati. Cuma di UMS terlebih tintanya….ewah~


So, here we go :

TERIMA KASIH!


Haziqah, : ajar kepentingan kesabaran dalam tugasan [birokrasi esp]

Auni: ajar ketekunan n seriusan dlm tugasan. do it till the end

Idayu: ajar menjadi diri sebenar

Hani: to accept our weakness

Ika: no matter how hard life is, try our best to move on , though it is bitter

Sumarni: tunaikan kata yang anda katakan.

Humam: anda mengetahui kapasiti diri sendiri, so biar diri sendiri yang tentu hidup anda.

Mr. ali: be humble! ;).

Madam madihah: a pack should walk as a pack.

Dr. Than: I don’t know. Am i supposed to know everything?

Dr. Connie: Biar minda tu kembang mekar macam bunga.

Lolan: le sarcasm! :P]

Dr. Michel : Look for potential market and potential microbz. $$$

jeni :wisdom! X)

And the list continue…

;)

sahaja aku serabut kerana...

Semakin hari semakin serabut. Once, you out of the schedule…dem!

Serabaitungganglanggangcacamerbaserbatakkena kehidupan. Schedule nih, melingkupi spiritual n fizikatual.

Assignments, reports, field work, programs, money management, classes, bla bla bla…best! Bla silap langkah, lagi best, serabut!

Bukan mau mengeluh mahupun mencari simpati, tapi suka hati aku lah, sekadar mencari konklusi.

Aih, serabut tang dunia je keh? Akhirat???

Nih, golongan yang aku tak berkenan, dok asingkan dunia akhirat. For me, all the things that we do on this world shall be the hereafter shares, depend on how we propagate them.

Kira berbaloi lah ye, berserabut mabut, pahala still masuk, which bring us back to the intentions.

Kalo segala bagai kelija [Assignments, reports, field work, programs, money management, classes, bla bla bla] di buat bukan kerana Allah, maka adalah sia- sia, setakat dunia sini, dunia sana tak da saham.

Mungkin, ada yang yang tertanya- Tanya, kenapa kena buat kerana Allah? Why? Kenapa mesti Allah, parents x bleh ke?


Jawapan saya yang cetek ilmu : kerana saya berpegang pada prinsip, saya ini dijadikan oleh Allah yang kemudiannya saya di amanahkan kepada my parents untuk jaga saya. So, yang lebih superior adalah Allah, yang mempunyai kuasa menjadikan saya dari tiada kepada ada. Jadi, disebabkan Allah yang menjadikan saya, maka setiap pekerjaan yang saya lakukan adalah semata- mata demi Allah yang menjadikan saya sekaligus ini merupakan cara saya melahirkan rasa syukur pada Allah yang menciptakan saya dan memberi peluang untuk saya merasai kehidupan ini.


Bila saya ada matlamat yang jelas, maka setiap pekerjaan lebih terarah dan ada matlamat.

Bila serabut mabut…molek jugo dok piker pasal matlamat aku dok buat sume mende [Assignments, reports, field work, programs, money management, classes, bla bla bla] tu…

Anda akan rasa kilija anda di hargai bukan sekadar manusia, tapi yang lebih superior than a human being, Allah Maha Suci lagi Maha Berkuasa… kenapa Allah, kerana hanya DIA yang mempunyai kuasa untuk membalas kebaikan kita, yakni membalas dengan kebaikan yang lebih baik dan adil, kalo bukan di dunia nih, maka sila tunggu di akhirat. That is why, we must have both, this world and hereafter, sebab kebaikan n kejahatan yang x dibalas di dunia akan di balas di akhirat, sama ada syurga atau neraka. This is what we called JUSTICE.



p/s: I wonder, how do people live without religion?
As for me, without GOD which for me is ALLAH, my life going to be miserable and hopeless, there will be negative end point and justice.



-Abaikn bahasa rojak mojak di atas… gua adalah serabut mabut! Trimas-


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JIWA KACAU

Bila tangan mula menari, hati mula berlagu. Tertanya- tanya, mana arah, mana tuju, di mana hujung di mana penamat. Bila tangan mula menari, seakan asyik namun tiada ketemu jawapan.

Pertama- tamanya, cuba mengimbas akan diri. Sepanjang rehat, tiada kemajuan diri, kemajuan hidup. Hanya sekadar, duduk di penjuru, mununnggu masa berlalu. Tiada ibrah mahupun sempadan.

Kadang- kala terasa diri masih mencari jawapan yang telah terjawab.

Cuba mengukir diri yang baharu, semangat yang baharu tapi seperti biasa tidak mudah. Jatuh terlingkup di bawah tempurung, menunggu insan lain membalikkan tempurung itu kembali.

Masih adakah sinar di hati? Masih wajarkah pilihan dibuat?

Sinar itu perlu digilap, pilihan itu perlunya istikharah.

Taharah sebagai asas ke kehadapan. Taharah itu menggembirakan. Taharah itu cinta.

Jadi, bermulalah dengan taharah.



.::Dengan nama Allah, Yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Pengasih::.



Hati berkerut- kerut.

Masalah hati berpunca bila hati tidak tenteram. Bila hati terusik, bila cinta burputik.

Cinta menjadi racun bila tidak dibendung. Cinta memakan diri bila dibiar menjalar.

Hati ini sakit, hati ini perlu dirawat.



.::Bertasbihlah ke atasNYA::.



Namun, kekuyuan mata bila mengenang hidup dan hati bakal segar, apabila digemparkan dengan permasalahan ummah!

Maka, ayuhlah fata, perbaiki SUBUH dan ISYAK denganNYa di awal waktu berjemaah, lalu marilah BANGKIT memperbetulkan UMMAH.

Apalah jiwa kacau jika bukan kerana UMMAH!






p/s: tapi, diri ini masih manusia biasa, yang berhadapan dengan hidup, jiwa serta hati kacau~ ++’

Mungkin itu yang dimaksudkan, iman adalah tidak malar.





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